Friday, December 31, 2010

Say no to the Sugar Plump Fairy!

A lot of people like to indulge in food when they are unhappy. The journey to forget someone can be tough…..so I decided to indulge in a tub of green tea ice cream (my favorite). MUAHAHAHA! Half way through the 2 liters of ice cream….I thought to myself…..wait a minute…why should my waistline suffer because of a bad break up! I will feel satisfy for a very short period of time…but my waistline will suffer for years to come!

On a superficial side of things…indulgence will result in a difficult time to find someone new! Say no to sugar plum fairy designed to make you plump! Fight the temptation!?

This link of the current sexiest woman alive photo leads me to believe that true love is out there. Despite of the jokes surrounding this image. Russell Brand sees her as she is, and loves everything about Katy. He loves her with and without her 9 pounds of cosmetics! Perhaps is it okay to finish that 2 liters of ice cream after all! haha! That's how I like to rationalize everything anyways! Ice cream wins at the end! H-u-r-r-a-y for ice cream...the end of my relstionahip problems and the beginning of my weight problem! :P

Thursday, December 30, 2010

Warning: Bringing children into an unhappy relationship may result in Ralph Wiggum(s)!

When two people are in a relationship, they tend to get animate or inanimate objects together. Some couples get pets, some get houses together and some even decide to have children. It is apparently called the “bad investment theory”. When a relationship is dysfunctional, couples tend to get something to bond them together…to rekindle their relationship…something to keep them mutually invested in the dysfunctional relationship…to keep the relationship “functional”. That is a very grim way of looking at something that is so sentimental and sweet…..right? When you really analyze it…perhaps it is not. There are probably a lot of sad sad truths to the theory. x_X

Regardless of what they may be, these are really hard to let go. You had grown so emotionally attached to “he, she and/or it”. They are entrenched in your way of life. Putting them in a bag is perhaps one of the hardest things I have ever had to do…..okay….I didn’t suffocate a dog or murdered a baby and then stuffed them into a bag to hide the evidence! They are stuffed animals I had grown to care for and love….it is very tough to lead a life without them….I know I sound like a drama queen…but it’s been hard. I loved them for ¼ of my life! Here I am rambling like an emo loser….okay…I will admit it…I am…don’t judge! >_<

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

The Disney Fallacy

Today I sat there and watched a bunch of Disney movies. I almost started sobbing. Felt like an uber loser. Do happy endings really exist in reality? Why does the beautiful Princess always end up with Prince Charming? Even the self centered, inconsiderate Prince Naveen (from the “Princess and the Frog”) is willing to get two jobs to make Tiana’s dream to own a restaurant come true! Aww...how sweet! *sniff sniff* (On a side note….something to perhaps ponder about…will you really turn into a frog if you kiss too many frogs? BLAH! Well if there are readers out there….I doubt there will be any…please slap some senses into me if I get that desperate! EW! I don’t want to turn into a frog!)

Okay...I am not looking for a prince...I just want to find love like Carl and Ellie Fredrickson in “Up” (also a Disney/Pixar production...maybe I just need to stop watching Disney movies that idealize romance...maybe I am just brainwash...haha!) I just want to find someone to grow old together with. A simple love through sickness and health is not too much to ask for right? Is it? Perhaps it is too good to be true! They do, after all… have a near perfect love….probably as close to perfect as any couple will ever get! Sometimes…may be it is the not so perfect part of a relationship that makes it unforgettable. In “Up”, it was Ellie’s infertility….the regret had strengthens their bond. To truly move on from a relationship…maybe you have to first let go of your regrets! Time can heal the deepest wounds….hopefully…

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

The Break Up

It’s been approximately two months since I had broken up with my boyfriend of six years. We still talk since our break up….and clearly it is a BAD idea. It takes more than a couple of shots for forget a relationship. TRUST ME! Talking to the person obviously delays the process. DUH! (Not to mention stupid!) I am allowing my ID to ruin my life. (For those who are not familiar “Id, ego, and super-ego are the three parts of the psychic apparatus defined in Sigmund Freud's structural model of the psyche. According to this model of the psyche, the id is the set of uncoordinated instinctual trends; the ego is the organised, realistic part; and the super-ego plays the critical and moralising role.” taken from wikipedia). I need to learn SELF CONTROL! Please super-ego…come back to me! I need to develop rational behavior! It seems when it comes to him.....I lose my ability to reason! *sniff sniff*

This blog is created to prevent me from venting to my friends! (I am sure they are ALL getting sick of my endless complains!) Hopefully by documenting the process, I can finally get over him…and perhaps I can even find my happily ever after. ...if it exist!